Today’s post is very different from the type of content I normally share, but I have been wanting to reflect on my health and fitness journey I started 3 months ago. Being someone who has always had a negative relationship with food and is notorious for starting new workout programs and quitting them in the same day, I never thought I would be where I am right now and I’d like to think that some of you are kind of like me in that sense. While I love beauty + fashion blogging SO much, I don’t want to pass up opportunities to share the not so glamorous parts of life. I’d like to think these types of posts are the most relatable, and I like connecting with you all on a more personal level. Hope you enjoy hearing a little bit about my health + fitness journey that’s just getting started!
January 1st, 2018
January 1st, 2018 is the day my new journey started. After Christmas and New Years, I was really disappointed with how I looked in family photos. I felt like you could tell I gained weight, especially in my face. The holidays are always a really hard time for me with food because there are so many sweets around and we go out to eat quite a bit with family. I never tried to make healthy decisions when out to eat. I just wanted to stuff myself with what was usually the greasiest thing on the menu. I did the same thing at home. It was so cold in Chicago that we stayed in a lot, which led to unnecessary snacking and unhealthy choices. I always ate a lot at night before bed, too. Anyone else a fan of a bowl of cereal before bed?!
Anyways, January 1st I decided to start another round of Whole30 and start the BBG workout program (learn more about BBG here) at the same time. Not a good idea! Your diet is so strict on Whole30 and with me doing a rigorous workout program, I was in a terrible mood 24/7. Luckily, Nathan did this round of Whole30 with me and he started working out as well. I really don’t think I would have been able to do it if I didn’t have him supporting me and holding me accountable.
November and December 2017
I’m about to get super vulnerable here, but flash back to November and December 2017, I remember crying to Nathan so many times because I was so unhappy with my body. He always told me he loved me and that he thought I was beautiful, but he understood me when I told him I didn’t feel like it. It’s hard y’all. Being a blogger and just a woman in general. There’s so much pressure to be perfect + look your best that it just got to me. You see these super skinny, super rich, fashion bloggers who blog a new outfit everyday and they look perfect while they do it and then you like get mad at yourself because you aren’t super skinny super rich and you can barely blog two outfits a week. I remember feeling so ashamed and embarrassed to even speak to Nathan about it. We had just gotten engaged in early December, and while I was so incredibly happy about that, I felt like he deserved a better me. It was so hard to communicate, but he supported me 100% and gave me the motivation to make a change.
February 1st, 2018
Let’s talk a little bit about BBG. BBG is a workout program you can do from your phone. I won’t get too detailed here, but basically everyday you have a new 28 minute workout to complete. One day you will do leg workouts, another day you might have cardio, followed by different days focusing on arms and abs. In the beginning you are doing a 28 minute workout 6 days out of the week. It’s a lot for someone who is not fit in the least, but it’s exciting because you are doing something different everyday. Every workout program I tried before BBG was boring + the moves were too hard. I can’t do boring, and when the moves are too hard, I easily get frustrated and give up. Anyone can truly do the BBG program.
I was frustrated after Whole30 and my first month of BBG was over. I mean why wasn’t I super skinny yet? I had been working my ass off for 5 weeks! Then I realized I was looking at it all wrong. When you are starting a health and fitness journey, it’s really important to not focus on your weight. It’s not and shouldn’t be all about that. If you’re just thinking of a number on the scale I think you lack seriousness, and you are more susceptible to losing motivation and falling right back into old habits.
I had to get my mindset back on track and focus on the positives. No, I didn’t notice a huge difference in how I looked, but I was making healthier choices + overall I felt pretty good. Whole30 gives you an amazing amount of energy! Plus, I needed to congratulate myself on the fact that I 1) completed my second Whole30 and 2) worked out consistently for an entire month! Two major milestones for me. I rewarded myself by continuing on to month two.
March 1st, 2018
I take a lot of blogging breaks. I recently just did another week long break. I know it sucks for my readers and my consistency efforts, but that’s how I’m able to keep producing good content for you all. Social media is so consuming, and taking frequent breaks is so refreshing for me. It’s so so easy to get completely wrapped up in constantly being on your phone and shopping and comparing yourself to others that it sometimes feels like you’re living a double life. Anytime I feel like it’s starting to consume me, I take a break. Honestly, I don’t know how full time bloggers do it! I used to think it was weird for “big” bloggers to have assistants, but now it makes complete sense to me.
March 1st, 2018 I have been doing BBG for 2 full months. Everyday I looked forward to my workout. I couldn’t wait to see what I was going to be doing that day. I started to feel stronger, I was doing more reps, and this is when I started noticing a difference in my body. I was feeling so good! I wasn’t sticking to a Whole30 diet anymore, but I started incorporating more healthy meals into our lives. I love to cook, so I had a lot of fun in the kitchen coming up with new ideas. We started eating a vegan meal at least one night a week, salmon or shrimp one night a week, and limiting our red meat (but we still love a good steak one night a week). We still order pizza sometimes, and I still have snacks in the evenings before bed, but I learned how to have balance, which got easier when I started noticing results.
April 1st, 2018
I still have a long ways to go, but at this point I’ve been working out consistently with the BBG program for 3 months and I have stayed on top of a mostly healthy diet. Like I said, we aren’t doing this perfectly, but we have achieved a good amount of balance. This entire process has been so mental for me, and if I was completely relying on how my body looked I would be so incredibly disappointed. Getting a fit body takes a lot of time, and I’m slowly getting there. I’m most proud for becoming more of a healthy person and measuring my happiness off of something other than just how I look. Looking back, I don’t think I was crying to Nathan about how awful I thought my body looked, I was upset because I knew I wasn’t being good to myself and at the time that translated into seeing myself a certain way in the mirror. I am so much happier now and I have BBG and Whole30 (and my amazing supportive fiancé) to thank for that. I feel really good.
If you’re feeling like you need a change, you should definitely check out the BBG program and consider doing a Whole30. Both of these programs have changed my life. They aren’t short term fixes, and that shouldn’t be what you want. Yes, Whole30 is a “thirty day program” but when you are done and you realize how different you feel, you will be surprised at how badly you want to keep up the lifestyle.
Thank you for those of you who have taken the time to read to the finish! I hope this helped even one of you!